It's been a good season. I got to go to New Orleans and connect with colleagues - both those I rarely see and some I see almost daily. It was energizing and I loved New Orleans - for a few days anyway.
A quick trip to Aspen to go to the Western Slope College Fair affirmed for me something I know - my soul is at peace in the mountains. Seriously, as I turned the corner to go to the college fair and the Maroon Bells commanded all my attention my heart literally skipped a beat and I gasped for breath. I'm not being dramatic. The view took my breath away. Syd and I drove up to the park to get a close view even though I was supposed to be going to the high school to set up for the fair. Still made it on time and filled my soul a bit more. It was worth it.
And I am lucky to travel to Hawaii for CC. I've gone enough that I count some of the counselors as friends. I got to stay at Nancy & David's home on Maui - a more peaceful sanctuary I'm not sure I could find:
My friend Sara and her husband coach the paddling team at their school and have been paddling in the Islands for 20 years. Mark gave me a quick lesson and off I went. It is blissfully peaceful and empowering. I loved it. More than I thought I would. Sara and Mark were impressed with how quickly I flipped the boat back over after my first "huli." It was a choppy day, but Sara had confidence in me - "you're a jock." I write that proudly - reminding myself that I've got an adventurous spirit....
So, as I sit here tonight, feeling lonely, I know that much of that is the result of my vagabond lifestyle that will soon be over. But it's more than that. It's a more profound feeling. I wonder, as I often do, about the plans the universe has for me. School isn't especially fulfilling this fall which makes me wonder if I'm on the right path. A parent told me yesterday that I should teach - she was so impressed with the information session I gave about CC. I know that I'm interesting, maybe not as interesting as some, but I also know I'm more interesting than many. But I'm feeling lost and alone today. Wanting more, so much more. Doesn't help that Syd is limping tonight. She hasn't done that in quite some time. Chasing too many squirrels today, most likely, but it always makes me sad and accentuates the lonely feeling.
But tomorrow I go to San Francisco. I'll see mom & dad and replenish my spirit a bit. That's the plan, anyway.
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